I always have this surreal feeling wash over me at this time of year. Another year passed and here I am sat in the same chair in the same spot as I was last year. Yet it’s all so different.
As much as I would love to relive all of the amazing things that happened to me throughout 2015, you guys were right there with me for every moment, you already know. Instead, I’d like talk about the changes that happened within me over the last 365 days.
I started off 2015 with bags under my eyes and butterflies in my chest still trying to adjust to so many changes in my life. I wasn’t quite ready to be an adult. But over the first few months of the year I learned and adapted, finding out just how truly strong and resilient I am as a person and now the only fluttering in my chest is with excitement for each day to start.
I learned to be assertive and to speak from my heart where before I would shy away and ignore situations. I wrote controversial blog posts laying my thoughts and opinions bare for all to see, because I wasn’t worried by the repercussions, I had learned to stand firm and strong beside my beliefs.
I learned about being me, unapologetically. I finally allowed my style to shine through, wearing my own blend of high street and designer, I didn’t have to pigeon hole myself anymore. I could finally be who I wanted to be and the warm reception from you all was incredible. I expanded my blog and brought more to the table and again your support was right there.
I grew a thicker skin and became unafraid to face problems head on even if it cost me a little pride.
I learned that I am never going to please everyone, and that I don’t want to either.
I developed a profound respect for the hundreds of creative, original and inspiring women in our industry.
I pushed my boundaries and faced my fears, a week on a boat and a cable car off the sheer drop of Santorini being no match for me.
and most importantly I loved with every part of my being, I loved life, I loved each and every one of you, I loved who I once was and who I had become, I loved the journey I had been on and the destination I reached.
So here I am, on the last day of 2015, with my usual sense of surrealism but this time partnered with sadness that I’m bidding farewell to the most heart warmingly incredible year of my life, worry that life simply cannot get better than this and excitement because I know that I am still so very naive with so so much to learn.
Now lets do it all again in 2016!